This week is a very stress week for me, I got 3 exams!!!! What a crazy week!
Today I got nag by my boy friend about my attitude towards study. Currently, my cgpa is kinda low and I was trying to work as hard as possible this semester. Nothing much, just to boost it up! However, he said that my attitude is not right?! I am not here to learn something but just to boost up my gpa. I felt kinda uneasy about it because it is true I wanna boost it up but I am NOT only boost it up ANYWAY, I got LIFE! I not like the one who got 4.0, I am just an ordinary person who when to United States all by myself, family paying my tuition and my final hope is to get a good result, good degree certificate and get out of this school, is anything wrong??? NO!!!!
Yeah sometimes I am NOT learning something but I DO learn something. Just like finance, I learn some new concept and new way to calculate all the things. Is because he worried about me or WHAT? I don't know! I just wanna prove that I am not STUPID! I can do very well if I work hard!
AM I WRONG???
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Updated lo
Hi, sorry for dint update for so long. I am very fine, TOTALLY FINE......The life here is damn hard, especially exam. I got 80 % for one of my subject, i only got B-, it really frastrated me......I know so of you may said:"GAMBATEH!" but u know, your gambateh no use to me, I am too tooooo far away.....
Next semester I will be busier, since I am taking 8 subjects, 6 classes and 2 online courses. Damn lo! and... ...California trip...unfortunely, CANCELED! cuz dint worked out, my fren from Arminia being called ASSHOLE by a German 26 year-old lady (we consider that because she sucks), he was so upset. But, I think that German lady mad, since she thought that she was more superior than us, ASIAN. oh watever ASSHOLE YOU BITCH! TAT'S Y U NEVER HAD A BOYFREN!HAHA!
Therefore, I am staying in Lincoln for whole winter. I am glad I met someone nice, she is an American named Sandi, we are same age and she kept me 5 days in her house for Thanksgiving. I really enjoyed it and hope to visit her mom again. Her mom, Anita was nice too, she taught me how to cook caremel candy, caremel popcorn and even how to make turkey. I am kinda homesick as I slept alone at queen size bed in her house, cuz it makes me think of my queen size bed in Malaysia too, silly huh?
Today I am kinda sad when I heard one of my fren in M'sia was so sad in his life, I know you need me, I wish I can always stay beside you, too, but I am too far away (emphasize few times). I hope you understand, I hope you forgive me. Always remember, I am your best friend! ^^
Tommorow is finals, I am going to DIE as usual......
I will buy a used car in this winter holiday, I juz can't continue my life without a car... ...
Oh~~~my car~~~my darling~~~(sing)
Next semester I will be busier, since I am taking 8 subjects, 6 classes and 2 online courses. Damn lo! and... ...California trip...unfortunely, CANCELED! cuz dint worked out, my fren from Arminia being called ASSHOLE by a German 26 year-old lady (we consider that because she sucks), he was so upset. But, I think that German lady mad, since she thought that she was more superior than us, ASIAN. oh watever ASSHOLE YOU BITCH! TAT'S Y U NEVER HAD A BOYFREN!HAHA!
Therefore, I am staying in Lincoln for whole winter. I am glad I met someone nice, she is an American named Sandi, we are same age and she kept me 5 days in her house for Thanksgiving. I really enjoyed it and hope to visit her mom again. Her mom, Anita was nice too, she taught me how to cook caremel candy, caremel popcorn and even how to make turkey. I am kinda homesick as I slept alone at queen size bed in her house, cuz it makes me think of my queen size bed in Malaysia too, silly huh?
Today I am kinda sad when I heard one of my fren in M'sia was so sad in his life, I know you need me, I wish I can always stay beside you, too, but I am too far away (emphasize few times). I hope you understand, I hope you forgive me. Always remember, I am your best friend! ^^
Tommorow is finals, I am going to DIE as usual......
I will buy a used car in this winter holiday, I juz can't continue my life without a car... ...
Oh~~~my car~~~my darling~~~(sing)
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Today's life~~~
Today, as ordinary as possible, wake up, go to class, eat, study, work and sleep again. The extraordinary things happen today is I GOT AN EXAM!!! I fail my exam 1 last time, I hope I won't this time, IF NOT~~~~KILL ME!!!!
Next semester I am pretty busy, 18 credit hours of study, 4 credit hours of online classes plus working (maybe). It seems you will never have fun in your study, well, I hope I could go for study abrod in Singapore in summer 2009 so that I have a reason going back home!!!HAHA!!! It shocks me when I check that I need $3,500 to study 3 cr in Singapore! (What the heck! &^#$@*! USD somemore, you buli Malaysian ke????)
Lifes continue, looking forward going to Califfornia in 18 December 2008!!! Come on Baby!
Next semester I am pretty busy, 18 credit hours of study, 4 credit hours of online classes plus working (maybe). It seems you will never have fun in your study, well, I hope I could go for study abrod in Singapore in summer 2009 so that I have a reason going back home!!!HAHA!!! It shocks me when I check that I need $3,500 to study 3 cr in Singapore! (What the heck! &^#$@*! USD somemore, you buli Malaysian ke????)
Lifes continue, looking forward going to Califfornia in 18 December 2008!!! Come on Baby!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
生活
人生苦短，所以，绝对要珍惜人生，在有限的时间里做无限的东西，回头看，可能没做什么，但是又像做了什么，哈哈！挺矛盾的。Obama 当选了，其实挺开心的，虽然对我没有什么大影响。而且，刚刚看了martin luther king 的演讲，“I have a dream”，这真的是一个很感人的演讲，怪不得他感动那么多人。
现在心情有点郁闷，不知道为什么。病了两天，总算好了，哭了一场，总算累了。有时候常常想，一个人到那么远到底为了什么？为什么要那么为难自己？但是理智告诉我，我需要在这里，因为我需要更好的未来。但是，真的有保障吗？我不知道。也不想去想那么多。现在的我开始home sick了，但是又不能告诉妈妈，唉！除了担心还能干嘛？
一个人，很苦，身边没有人，更苦。刚看了一封e-mail，它说，我们能不能选择去爱或不爱一个人？它的结论当然是不能，但是我的结论是，其实可以。我没有办法去选择不爱我的家人，但是，我宁可选择不要爱不爱我的人。凭什么我要去傻傻地爱一个不爱我的人？凭什么我要浪费自己的青春去想一个不想我的人？有时候我真的觉得自己是用脑子谈恋爱的。以前的我一直以为自己是很浪漫的，自从有了他后，我发现，自己是一个现实到不行的人。
我无法相信没有证据的事情，更没法相信没有合约的承诺。因为承诺可以当吃生菜，下一秒，它已不现实了，因为它过去了。但是，我不怪破坏承诺的人，因为这是人的本性，一直在改变。所以，他们需要神，因为神是永远的，不管一百年，一千年，祂都不会改变。
我相信神的存在，不相信神的永恒。我喜欢改变，我喜欢有变化，有趣的人生，如果自己从不改变，那生活岂不是很无聊？(所以神是很无聊的？！）美国的宗教主意特强，搞得我有些反感，特别是老年人，每天在那里jesus christ，我快疯了！
不管怎么样，生活照过，饭照吃，澡照洗，书照读，只是，半颗心已经不再这里了。所以下次，朋友们，见到我是，不用问“你好吗？”，该问：“死了没”，哈哈！
现在心情有点郁闷，不知道为什么。病了两天，总算好了，哭了一场，总算累了。有时候常常想，一个人到那么远到底为了什么？为什么要那么为难自己？但是理智告诉我，我需要在这里，因为我需要更好的未来。但是，真的有保障吗？我不知道。也不想去想那么多。现在的我开始home sick了，但是又不能告诉妈妈，唉！除了担心还能干嘛？
一个人，很苦，身边没有人，更苦。刚看了一封e-mail，它说，我们能不能选择去爱或不爱一个人？它的结论当然是不能，但是我的结论是，其实可以。我没有办法去选择不爱我的家人，但是，我宁可选择不要爱不爱我的人。凭什么我要去傻傻地爱一个不爱我的人？凭什么我要浪费自己的青春去想一个不想我的人？有时候我真的觉得自己是用脑子谈恋爱的。以前的我一直以为自己是很浪漫的，自从有了他后，我发现，自己是一个现实到不行的人。
我无法相信没有证据的事情，更没法相信没有合约的承诺。因为承诺可以当吃生菜，下一秒，它已不现实了，因为它过去了。但是，我不怪破坏承诺的人，因为这是人的本性，一直在改变。所以，他们需要神，因为神是永远的，不管一百年，一千年，祂都不会改变。
我相信神的存在，不相信神的永恒。我喜欢改变，我喜欢有变化，有趣的人生，如果自己从不改变，那生活岂不是很无聊？(所以神是很无聊的？！）美国的宗教主意特强，搞得我有些反感，特别是老年人，每天在那里jesus christ，我快疯了！
不管怎么样，生活照过，饭照吃，澡照洗，书照读，只是，半颗心已经不再这里了。所以下次，朋友们，见到我是，不用问“你好吗？”，该问：“死了没”，哈哈！
Monday, October 27, 2008
In Kansas City Description
以下是我和朋友们花$50去kansas city玩的照片。那些照片里呢。。。注意注意！有空中飞人！还有一个过山车，像山那么高，吓死人！有一张是我们的中午饭，还有一张是，那过山车是脚吊着的，我男朋友玩了后，简直头冒星星月亮，哈哈！有一张是我和全部一起来的朋友照的（一个gang，all china except me...)注意那红衣女的，我们叫她阿姨，因为她24岁了，读着master，而我男朋友隔壁的（和他差不多高的），他和阿姨都很猛，把那里恐怖的东西全玩完了，还笑我们小孩不敢玩！哈哈！而站我隔壁的男的，外号叫大叔，但是他一点都不老，88年的。他据会说笑话，非常非常幽默，还有别看他好像傻B，他一点也不傻，哈哈！还有一些是和snoopy拍照，而我抱着的snoopy是他送我的第一份礼物，现在取名为小白。所以，我家的小棕有伴了！（for your information,小棕是shek wei，wee shin，pui kuan and tiffany送的小熊）
Saturday, October 25, 2008
我想念妈妈
妈妈，我真的很想念你！想念你每天和我吵架，想念你煮maggie mee给我吃。我知道，你煮的东西不是那么好吃，但总比没得吃好。我想到要到后年才见到你就烦！！！我真的很想明年买机票飞回国，但是这是不理智的。因为我有工作，可以赚钱，最主要是，可以赚学费，帮轻你一下。与其为了见你一面，不如努力挣钱，让你不要那么辛苦。
很想很想打电话给你，但是，我说不出：“我很好!"可是我又不得不说这句话。。。唉！留学生就是矛盾。。。。。所以，本人在此奉劝有心出国留学的人，锻炼身心，第一，每天几乎走10km的路，第二，每天和非常大的风（那种绝对会把轻的人吹走的风）搏斗，第三，要耐寒（一天热，一天冷的鬼天气），第四，在一个荒山野岭读书（看松鼠和野兔满街跑），第五，没有得过新年！！！！！！
很想很想打电话给你，但是，我说不出：“我很好!"可是我又不得不说这句话。。。唉！留学生就是矛盾。。。。。所以，本人在此奉劝有心出国留学的人，锻炼身心，第一，每天几乎走10km的路，第二，每天和非常大的风（那种绝对会把轻的人吹走的风）搏斗，第三，要耐寒（一天热，一天冷的鬼天气），第四，在一个荒山野岭读书（看松鼠和野兔满街跑），第五，没有得过新年！！！！！！
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