Real feeling

Is coming, my DEADLINE, 19 August......Actually I am scare, really scare. Is a new life! (X say), is your own future (Y say). What I say is......go to hell! You wouldnt understand my feeling de!!! Ya ya ya, I really want to shout at everyone who say this, and then hug that person and just cry and tell out my stress and fear. However, I know, there is no place for me to do this; I understand I cannot express what I really feel to others. I have always supress my feeling, always. So, I gonna be strong and continue to supress it.
What I feel now is, I WANT TO CRY, BUT I DO NOT HAVE ANY TEARS. And when I look at my friends and family who always have a sad look towards me, I know, no matter what I feel right now, I cannot tell. So, I promise myself, I would not have a tears, even the day after tomorrow. I will smile and go to US. I know, is my life. I will live happy and ever after there.
Khai Shin! no worries! Gambateh! and (actually wanna write longlong de... ...but badminton finals coming lar...no time liao la...haha)

Lastly............






Wong Khai Shin,stop cakap! pigi tenggok badminton la! nanti dia macam mana menang pun taktau, mati lo......